Shiny steeples

Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns covers the following chorus:

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

I’m trying to be a bit more honest about my life and the way I feel when I feel it. I think I’ve lived for so long by sweeping issues and feelings and emotions under the carpet that now that everything is more or less out in the open, I am grappling both with my freedom and the risks associated with transparency.

Of course, with freedom comes boundaries and I’ve learned that though it is a struggle, there are some things that should remain undiscussed – some at least for the moment and others indefinitely.

Honesty and transparency seems to require a specific time, place and discretion. We wouldn’t, for example, think it wise to express all our feelings to everybody in our every waking moment. We also wouldn’t want to hide behind certain feelings but express the opposite ones either. At the same time, we shouldn’t have to apologise for the way we feel when we do choose to express it.

So what I guess I’m trying to say is, it’s a very fine balance and it doesn’t have to be a game just because everybody’s playing it.