One McBS Meal, please?

I’ve realized recently that it takes more effort to be grateful and happy and just focus on the positive than it is just to let everything overwhelm you. There’s always so much shit around that if we don’t put up a wall and filter out stuff to focus on it’s that much easier to get caught up in a flurry of bullshit and self-pity – not a good meal.

Just Be Happy is not as simple as it sounds.
It’s easier to Just Be Angry.
Just Be Depressed.
Just Be Pissed Off.
Have you ever wondered why that is?

It takes supreme effort to find the silver lining not because it is so rare but because it is so much easier to focus on the looming cloud. But it is possible to find that silver lining and focus on that.
It’s an effort. But not impossible.

So I’ve been doing it all wrong.
All this while I’ve been focused on actively blocking out the cloud in the struggle to zoom in on the silver lining. And it hasn’t been working because that damn cloud keeps coming into the picture. You can’t repress anything without it coming back to haunt you, we aren’t made to hide things in the corners of our fragile minds. No, I have to look for the silver lining inspite of it. The cloud’s always going to be in the background, that’s a given.

Only difference now is that I am actively choosing to give that thread all my attention.
I’m figuring it’s at least something to hold on to until the sun comes out again.

Goodness knows, sometimes all it takes is one ray to make it seem worth while.