Two corners of the ring

Wishes she was listening to: Coldplay’s Violet Hill
“I wish I could stop putting my blues on you.”

My brother and I had the stupidest fight last night. Pfft.
We actually wrestled for the cordless phone and suddenly the screen went blank and no amount of shaking or tapping or removing the batteries helped.
I got mad, threw the phone, yelled, “You broke it!” and stomped off angrily and slammed my bedroom door (notice how you ALWAYS have to slam a door when you’re mad) because he just sat there laughing.
Two minutes later, he pounded on my bedroom door and yelled back, “It’s working now, you LOSER.”

I vaguely remember throwing my quilt covers aside and pointedly ignored him and went to bed. I heard the TV blare loudly while I drifted off to sleep.

This morning my mother woke me up and asked me what we fought about and said my brother had complained to her that I treat him like crap, so why should he do anything for me? Even my dad, who can sleep through a tornado asked what we were arguing about. As I was about to tell them about it, I stopped short and realised just how stupid it was and how retelling something like that would just make me sound equally stupid.

It wasn’t even a proper fight. Not something we could be proud of.
We wrestled over a cordless phone for crying out loud, not even something substantial like the deeds to a house or money.

Pfft.

Meanwhile, happy birthday Bevvie and Kanithraletchumenaidu (21 letters).
I’ve known you guys forever, may this be as wonderful for you as I hope it will be.

The behavior testing phase is on right now. My greatest fear is that there will be no results for any of my parameters, that I will be this huge failure and have nothing substantial to write about in my thesis. I had something close to a panic attack the other night but it didn’t eventuate to anything serious because I expertly repressed it away to the furthest corner of my mind. One panic attack at a time, cordless phone first.  XO

I’m afraid by the time I get the hang of this, it will all be over and it would have been too late for me to go back and do anything over. That all my efforts this past 6 months would have been for naught. Nothing to defend in my thesis defense, nothing at all. Yeah I know I know, no results is still a result but seriously who wants to read that paper, right? Haih, and my social life is in shambles right now, don’t really have the energy to do much when I get home except have dinner, shower and pass out.

Omg, I have to submit my thesis in 3.5 months.
Repress, repress.

And seriously I have no idea why I have so many Jay Sean songs in my Shuffle.

Yes, I am a barrel of laughs today but I’m doing okay, all things considered.

Good luck for your exams, Yowie, seriously, I know what you’re going through.

Ciao.